This is a very sensitive topic to a lot of people including myself. The question is should I continue with abortion or not? This is my testimony and I'am writing this in the spiritual perspective.
Unwanted or unplanned pregnancies can be very stressful and depressing on the part of the expectant mother and sometimes to the father as well. It could be frightening because both parties are not prepared maybe physically, emotionally and or financially. It can be more frustrating without the support of the unborn child's father and sometimes other family members or friends as well. Another case would be if the expectant mother is still studying college or high school and the father as well. Because of the pressure of not knowing what the future may hold for the baby, the family or for themselves most people would consider abortion. The fear and the pain could be unbearable and they thought that the solution was to terminate the pregnancy.
I have been in that situation and had also read some articles and reviews online if I should do it or not(abortion). Some says "no" while others said "yes". I'am shocked how other reviews online would say that they don't feel any guilt or remorse after what they have done. I don't want to judge them but in my experience it was extremely painful physically, emotionally and mentally. I did not took any medications for abortion but I had a difficult pregnancy. I just simply did not take my medications prescribe by the doctor. I think I did took only the medication for 2 days and then I just stopped. I was so fearful. My boyfriend can't find a stable job, he was still studying at that time and I'm afraid of our baby's future. I can't barely go to work because I feel tired all the time. I feel so hopeless. Some of my family members were not very supportive of the relationship as well. Although my boyfriend was very supportive and he really wanted the baby. I still feel so alone on all of this. I even prayed to God to just take my baby and give it to someone more deserving. Don't get me wrong I always wanted to have a baby but this time I'm just not prepared for it. We made a mistake. We had sex not thinking about the future of our child. We have sinned against God because we were not married. It's also immoral according to the bible.
I lost my baby at exactly three months. The dilatation and curettage was also very painful and I also had to go to labor pains. I suffered a lot of pain physically and emotionally and end up empty handed. Luckily my boyfriend was there all along although he cannot help me with the pain. It was all me who suffered a lot. After we buried the baby I was in a lot of pain emotionally and mentally. The guilt and the lost was too much for me. I grieved for my baby. I cried almost everyday for months. Sometimes I feel like the pain would never stop. It's not true of those reviews or articles that I read online about not feeling guilty or anything. The guilt and pain was just too much for me. I was so depressed.
After a few months my boyfriend left me and I fell deeper into depression. I cannot tell anyone about what I did. I was afraid that my boyfriend, family or friends would not understand and that they would judged me. All I wanted at that time was just to end my life. I kept thinking of ways to end my life to stop the pain and suffering. That's the time that I kept asking God to just take me already so I don't have to end my pathetic life. But God has other plans for me. He started showing me short clips of sermons of Pastors online. Until I started watching the whole sermon on youtube. Slowly the Lord changed me. At first I would not think of killing myself but at some days I would wanted to do so. It wasn't easy. The spiritual transformation of the Lord was gradual. It takes a lot time and patience. A lot of seeking the Word of God. He is so patient and loving with me and to all of us.
God took my guilt and nailed it on the cross. Only Jesus Christ can save me from the pain and guilt. I repented from my sins and don't ever want to do that again. I will share with you some of the verses in the bible that could help you to continue your pregnancy. I know it's not that easy. Also for some who had been raped and got pregnant. It's not your fault or baby's fault. Both of you are victims. Here are some verses in the bible that could strengthen you to go on with the pregnancy:
Jeremiah 1:5 (NIV)
"Before I formed you in the womb I knew you, before you were born I set you apart; I appointed you as a prophet to the nation."
-This was God talking to Jeremiah. This is also true to all of us. God has plans for all of us. Even though our parent did not plan us. God has planned us and formed us in our mother's womb for a special purpose. Abortion would stop that purpose that God has planned for each of us.
Psalm 139:13 (NIV)
For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother's womb.
Ephesians 2:10
For we are God's handiwork, created in Christ Jesus to do good work, which God prepared in advance for us to do.
-This is why abortion is wrong. God is all knowing. Even before we are born He has already known us and have great plans for us here on earth and for all eternity.
Exodus 20:12
You shall not murder.
Genesis 4:10
"And he said, What hast thou done? the voice of thy brother's blood crieth unto me from the ground."
- This is God talking to Cain after he murdered his own brother. "Thy brother's blood" is plural and may refer to "seeds" who have been cut off and will never be born. When someone murders or abort a human life it also means killing the seeds or children of that the person might have in the future. It's not just one person but it could be a lot more.
For those who had an abortion there is still hope for you. No matter what you did you can still be saved. God is just waiting for you to come back to Him. He has given you each day as a chance to repent from your sins. When we repent we change the way we think to change the way we act. To think more and be more like Jesus because that is God's will for us.
1 John 1:19
If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness.
For those who are struggling financially. I know it may seem like there is no future for both of you and your baby but you were wrong. God is our provider. Have faith in Him and trust Him.
Philippians 4:19
And my God will supply all your needs according to His riches in glory by Christ Jesus.
-It says there all your "needs" and not your "greed". God is moved when we trust Him and have faith in Him.
For those who are fearful about the pregnancy maybe the labor pains, not being ready to be a mother, not having enough money and many others. Don't let the enemy put fear in your heart. Instead put the words of God in your heart.
Isaiah 41:10
So do not fear, for I'am with you; do not be dismayed, for I'am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.
For the expectant mothers and fathers I hope that both of you will raise your children knowing God and teaching them the ways of the Lord. Having a church family would also help your family and kids.
Ephesians 6:4
Fathers, don't stir up anger in your children, but bring them up in the training and instruction of the Lord.
Proverbs 22:6
Train up a child in the way he should go. Even when he is old he will not depart from it.
Having a family, a husband or wife and kids we become more selfless. We thin more of the welfare of our kids than our own. Having our own family is also a way of the Lord to teach us important lessons in life. Our relationship with our husband or wife and kids would sometimes teach us also to be more considerate, patient, selfless and forgiving. God has a purpose for our family. Because of our family and our relationship with them we become more like His Son. And that is the will of God for us.
Jeremiah 29:11
For I know the plans I have for you", declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
I want you to make the right decision and not to regret anything at the end. It's not yet too late. Hopefully this article would be a way for the Lord to save the lives of unborn children and expectant mothers.
To God be the glory!
